Alex got himself into a bit of trouble a couple days ago that's really going to cost the both of us financial difficulty for a little bit. We were already having relationship problems, and by the looks of things, he thought that after his little screw up, he'd come home and find me packed up and gone, fed up with his crap. I wasn't gone, however. I probably could have been if my car wasn't impounded, but I didn't even think of leaving. All I did was worry if he was okay, and I woke up thinking about how much I missed him. I wasn't even 100% positive I truly loved him until then, because if I didn't, I think that would have been the last straw for me.
It's been extremely stressful at work, believe it or not. Last week, I showed up an hour late because I copied down my shift times wrong and didn't catch it until the last minute. Then a couple days ago after Alex's situation, I was stressed out and I could not deal with troublesome customers, I just wasn't having any of it. I didn't have half of my uniform because it was in my car, which was impounded, and I was being really rude to customers and I was written up because my drawer was $3 short at the end of my shift. Then, yesterday, my period started (just my luck with all of the shit already going on with me) and I was losing a lot of blood. I don't know if the TDap vaccine I got a couple days ago had anything to do with it but I was losing more blood than usual, and 30 minutes into my shift I became extremely light headed and nauseous and I nearly passed out. One of my co-workers gave me water and told me I should tell my manager I need to go home because I was looking really pale. So I ended up going home early and once I got home, I threw up and Alex helped me into bed and I passed out right away. I can't go back to work again until I get a doctor's return notice, but I'm not even feeling any better right now. I'm still light headed and still nauseous, but at least I'm not about to pass out at any moment. I feel like I'm about to get fired for screwing up so much in the last week, which is really upsetting to me because I do feel like I work really hard and I enjoy the job (other than the meth heads that come in and are really indecisive about which frigging donuts they want).
Brightside! I'm doing extremely well in school and I'm enjoying it. This is the first time since moving to Albuquerque I've had friends that I was able to hang out with outside of school and be myself around. The best part is that we're all taking the exact same classes and we have similar goals, so it's really easy to talk to them about things and study, and it's probably thanks to them that I still have A's in my classes so far, and we're halfway to midterm! I've started a Facebook study group with Mikaela that's actually turned out to be pretty successful. 16 people from our classes have already joined and it seems to be helping out quite a few of us a lot. We share notes and study guides we've made and I update people on the homework that's due the next week, along with articles, pictures, and videos we find on the internet. Also updating people with announcements the instructors have made or when grades for assignments have been posted. It's really great that we're helping each other rather than have it be all competitive like I know a few other programs are, and I feel like I contributed a lot to my classmates. Hopefully I keep this motivation up until the end of the program! Other than all the above, all I'm doing now is study study studying. My head hurts. The lowest quiz score I've gotten was a 7/10 and I'm telling everyone I'm failing. I've done all the extra credit and more. I might be overachieving just a little bit.
xoxo
Angie
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